Friday, July 31, 2009

Selalu Mengalah

I may not a sentimental guy who goes around carried away with sentimental songs. Maybe I was, (hehe) during school days. Tapi masa tu terikut ikut dengan kengkawan yang tangkap leleh. However, I am also not a stone hearted guy either. I listen to romantic sad songs, feel it and get influenced by it once in a while, but that doesn't mean I will get carried away with it. I consider myself as more pop and rock rather than ballad melancholic follower. I love this song, by an Indonesian group, Seventeen, titled Selalu Mengalah.

Jelaskan padaku isi hatimu
Seberapa besar kau yakin padaku
Untuk tetap bisa bertahan denganku
Menjaga cinta ini

Pertengkaran yg terjadi
Seperti semua salahku

Mengapa slalu aku yg mengalah
Tak pernahkah kau berfikir
Sedikit tentang hatiku
Mengapa ku yang harus slalu mengalah
Pantaskah hatiku masih bisa bersamamu



I am tired being a captain - Penat menjadi nakhoda.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Back to basic

Location : Kg. Pulau Pandan, Mak’s house.

Quiet night. Cool. Serene. Only sounds of crickets and frogs from the dark. Once in a while, the sounds of cars passing by heard from afar. Sitting alone at the verandah, sweet old memories of old days creeping to my mind. I am looking at once a paddy field. I used to run and play by the bays, enjoying my childhood, no responsibilities.

I am taking time to access my business. Together with my partner, Haji Husin, we have developed this partnership into a quite steady trade. With the committments by the Heads of Business Units and Support Service staffs, we have build quite an unwavering organisation. Suddenly, I realized I have been too ambitious lately. Business books say, in business we should always think big. Aim high. If you get lower, it’s still good. Aim low. If you get lower, it’s really bad. But am I setting too large goals in such short period of times? Am I over-promised myself? Am I being realistic? I think, I have to go back to basic. Focus on consistencies. A consistent stream of successful business transactions will eventually lead closer to the intended goals. It is not just limited in term of profits. It could be how consistent the employees are at work, how consistent the sales have been, how good we run our customer services, how consistent we are on our line of actions, etc.

I have to go back to basic. Concentrate on the target markets. The customers and clients are my profit generators. We need to find out what these people really want from our business. Better product? Better service? Better price? I will look back into their needs – with respect and importance, and that the money they are spending is worth its prices.

I have to go back to basic. Look into ourselves, our organization, our company, our team. We need to work smoothly and in-sync to produce comprehensive and satisfactory results. Broken communication, unfocused staff and motivations issues are some kinks that can bring dooms to our organization.

I have to go back to basic. Look into our products. It can be tangible which people can hold, see, smell and touch, or intangible like well organized services. Introducing a new product is NOT going to improve our profit margin. I do not think we will need a ‘new’ product, I just need to improve on the current one that I already have. Apple iPod never really did add new products to this product until recently. They basically improved on their base model by following industry and customer trends.

I realized, the basics of my business should be the ones to be answered first before jumping into new product or so-called innovative ideas. I don’t want to lose direction!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Nota Hati Seorang Lelaki.

It is my latest read by Pahrol Mohamad Juoi. He claimed that his book is just a 'biasa-biasa' book but he note "carilah sesuatu yang luar biasa di sebalik buku yang biasa-biasa ini". True to his word, it is just a 'biasa -biasa' book. But I found some common characteristic of a lelaki in him and the lelaki in me.

Izinkan lelaki itu pergi
Walau kakinya bagai terpasung luka
Walau hatinya tercalar bisa
Izinkan dia melangkah jua

Tangismu tidak dia lupakan
Bukan dia tega
Bukan dia rela
Tetapi dia terpaksa
Izinkan dia pergi jua

Di hatinya ada wahyu yang merayu
Di situ tidak pernah ada tunggu
Walau terjerat... walau terikat
Dia mesti pergi jua

Ah, genderang itu telah berbunyi
Dia terpaksa pergi
Jangan kau tunggu lagi
Mari pergi bersamanya
Walau terseksa, lelaki itu kan pergi jua!

Lelakis are unstoppable creature. He will do what he wills. Along the way, he will hurt his loved ones but that doesn't mean love is not in his heart. He will cry alone in the dark when nobody is watching, but that doesn't stop him from doing what he wants. Ah, men! Full of eccentricities! (or is it me?)

Rindu kat Mak

Dah dekat 2 bulan I did not visit my mum. The last time (a month ago) was just a short 'drop by' which doesn't count as a visit. A visit must be at least minimum 1 night stay at her house, makan her cook dan sembang-sembang sampai tengah malam bercerita hal adik adik dan adik beradik. I admit, I am not a person who goes back balik kampong and tak tau duduk diam berkemas kawasan sekitar. That will be my younger brother, Chu. (By the way, today is Chu's 41st birthday. Happy birthday Chu!). My balik kampong means lepak-lepak kat rumah mak, baring-baring, tidur, makan, nganja-nganja dengan mak, borak-borak dengan mak, watch TV, lepak-lepak, baring-baring, lepak-lepak lagi, makan lagi, sampailah masa untuk balik KL balik. Eventhough I like that one, mak tetap sayang me one. Nantilah, I will try to balik kampong this weekend. Nak lepas rindu kat mak.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

A very dangerous article by Zainul Arifin of NSTP

A descent point of view at first, but later turn into a very dangerous racist article. How could a very senior journalist write something like this? Shame on you! So, are you suggesting that it is OK if you are a Malay, and later found dead after being interrogated by the authority, because the interrogator are Malays? Brainless. It is not about race, it is about the death of a non-suspect Malaysian who were found dead in a government agency's office after being interrogated for straight 10 hours (from 5pm). Allah has predetermined our death - when, where and how. Zainul Arifin keep that belief all the way, until when he wrote "Kenapa Menteri Besar Selangor, seorang Melayu, meragui kebolehan orang sebangsanya bertindak dengan tulus dan adil?" - he is already playing with racial flame. I don't share the same feel.

Kematian Teoh timbulkan pelbagai spekulasi politik
Oleh Zainul Ariffin
zainul@nstp.com.my
(online version here)

KEMATIAN Teoh dijadikan polemik dan isu politik tanpa mengambil kira kesedihan yang melanda anggota keluarganya.

Oportunisme boleh rampas kesedihan untuk jadi modal siasah

ADAKAH ahli dan penyokong Pakatan Rakyat saja yang berasa sedih ke atas kematian Teoh Beng Hock?

Tentu sekali jika dilihat dari muka-muka sama yang bergegas mengepalai tunjuk perasaan apabila saja ada kejadian seperti ini berlaku, beratur untuk perhatian jurugambar dan pemberita, dan di dalam kepala menghitung laba politik yang mungkin diperoleh.

Oportunisme politik boleh merampas kesedihan untuk dijadikan modal politik. Kematian boleh dijadikan pemangkin untuk naikkan kemarahan, dan juga batu hikmat menarik sokongan.

Terlalu sedikit cubaan untuk menenangkan keadaan. Di dalam kes Teoh setiap kenyataan seakan-akan berbau politik. Jika orang marah, apikan lagi. Jika bersedih, apa lagi, kenangkanlah nasib mereka dan paling penting, cari pihak yang perlu dipertanggungjawabkan.

Sudah tentulah Suruhanjaya Pencegahan Rasuah Malaysia (SPRM) perlu bertanggungjawab kerana mendiang Teoh kali terakhir berada di pejabat berkenaan dan mayat beliau dijumpai berhampiran. SPRM juga menemuduga Teoh hingga awal pagi.

Tanggungjawab SPRM ialah untuk menyiasat sepenuhnya kejadian itu, dan jika ada kesilapan atau kelemahan, atau kecuaian dan salah laku di pihaknya, tindakan perlu diambil. Ia mesti telus dan tegas.

Tetapi ia sepatutnya tidak perlu dipertanggungjawabkan untuk menangkis tuduhan yang tidak berasas, menjawab tohmahan, dan melayan agenda politik orang lain. Segala keraguan dan persoalan mesti dijawab, tetapi mestilah tidak yang bermotifkan politik.

Yang lebih penting, tanggungjawab SPRM ialah supaya ia tertumpu kepada tugasnya. Siasatan yang masih ada, termasuk terhadap ahli politik yang bertempik dan berkumpul di luar pejabatnya, yang cuba menimbulkan syak dan wasangka terhadap integriti agensi itu, mestilah diteruskan.

Kita faham ramai yang marah. Kita juga tahu ramai yang bersedih dengan kematian Teoh. Semua orang ada abang, adik, anak, suami, kawan dan faham serta simpati kepada pemergian orang muda seperti Teoh yang masa hadapannya nampak cerah.

Bukan orang Cina atau penyokong Pakatan Rakyat saja yang tahu marah dan mahukan keadilan.

Namun, elemen perkauman dimasukkan oleh beberapa ahli Dewan Negeri Selangor apabila mereka disiasat sama ada menyalahgunakan peruntukan dan kuasa oleh SPRM, walaupun anggapan ini salah kerana ada Adun Melayu disiasat juga.

Namun keraguan timbul, terutama di kalangan bukan Melayu bahawa SPRM, yang semestinya seperti agensi kerajaan lain banyak pekerja Melayu, secara selektif memilih bukan Melayu untuk disiasat.

Apabila mangsa kemalangan pula orang bukan Melayu, yang sebelumnya disiasat orang Melayu, bertambah hebatlah spekulasinya. Di alam maya internet tidak susah mencari kesimpulan berunsur perkauman.

Adakah ini politik? Peduli apa kesannya kepada negara asalkan popular. Walau dihias dengan kata-kata manis seperti hak asasi ataupun ketelusan atau keadilan, yang jelas, kadang-kadang, agenda perkauman nyata.

Kenapa perlu menanam kebencian, meniup api kemarahan terhadap agensi kerajaan yang banyak juga penyokong mereka bekerja di dalamnya? Dengar sajalah perkataan kesat yang dilemparkan kepada polis dan sebagainya?

Keadilankah yang dituntut atau kebencian digalakkan?

Adakah strategi untuk menggalakkan syak terhadap agensi kerajaan. Dulunya kehakiman kemudian polis, kini SPRM?

Apakah nilai kepemimpinan politik jika apa yang digalakkan ialah membenci dan menghasut? Di manakah fahaman politik atau ideologi mulia?

Apabila saja ada perkara seperti ini, bergegas-gegas muka yang sama mengeluarkan kenyataan yang pada asasnya menanam syak kepada institusi.

Cukuplah dengan membenci pimpinan kerajaan. Mereka orang politik, mereka boleh terima semua ini. Tetapi pegawai kerajaan bukan orang politik; mereka jalankan tugas dan arahan.

Sedarlah jika setiap kali institusi kita dicerca dan dihina, lama-kelamaan akan ada yang terlekat. Makin lama semakin tipis kepercayaan kita.

Pepatah Inggeris berkata: 'You reap what you sow' � jika ada pihak yang mahu popular dengan menabur syak wasangka kepada orang lain, lama kelamaan dia juga akan menerima kesannya.

Katalah ditakdirkan pembangkang memerintah, tidak akan reputasi institusi dan agensi yang dipijak-pijak akan kembali pulih serta merta. Apa yang runtuh sukar dibina semula. Institusi akan terus dipandang serong, kepercayaan rakyat akan tetap menipis.

Adakah kehakiman atau polis yang sentiasa dikutuk akan jadi baik tiba-tiba dan terus diterima rakyat. Hakisan tidak boleh dipatah balik, malah ia selalu membawa kepada keruntuhan.

Kenapa, contohnya perlu kerajaan Selangor mahukan pakar bedah swasta untuk siasat kematian Teoh? Adakah pakar hospital kerajaan tidak layak? Atau tidak boleh dipercayai?

Kenapa Menteri Besar Selangor, seorang Melayu, meragui kebolehan orang sebangsanya bertindak dengan tulus dan adil?

Bukankah banyak pegawai agensi atau institusi kerajaan orang Melayu? Adakah polis, hakim, guru, penyiasat, doktor, pensyarah Melayu semuanya tidak boleh dipercayai?

Percayalah, inilah yang berlaku apabila kita sama naik menabur syak pada agensi dan institusi kerajaan. Layari sahaja laman internet untuk mengetahui apa yang dikatakan mengenai institusi-institusi yang kebanyakan diketuai dan dipenuhi oleh orang Melayu.

Bukan ahli dan penyokong parti politik saja yang mahukan keadilan. Orang lain pun begitu. Tetapi jangan semua institusi diruntuh. Janganlah termakan kata-kata orang, yang agendanya kadang-kadang hendak mempersoalkan kebolehan orang Melayu.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Michael Jackson

It was Friday night, March 25, 1983. The place is Pasadena Civic Auditorium, California. And I was at Arau, busy preparing for my final year Diploma study (and enjoying every minute of my super senior status in college). Magic happened that night in Motown 25. Smokey Robinson was reunited with his group, The Miracles. Jackson 5 reunited to stage a show after 8 years for a medley. And the greatest magic was Michael Jackson's brilliant show of Billie Jean, showcasing a new direction in his dancing and debuting the now signature MJ's move - the Moonwalk. I wasn't really care at that time, until I came out from college and was introduced to the 'real world'. Atras, my disco buddy was a da*n good dancer. He impersonated the Moonwalk perfectly (to my standard). I will put on my socks, gliding across and all over my living hall just to get the glide right. But I was, and never a good dancer. I couldn't do it then, and even worse now.






Last night I stayed up late, to witness the Public Memorial Service to the Greatest Entertainer that Ever Lived - Michael Jackson. The ceremony took place at Staples Centre, LA. At the age of 50, his sudden death from cardiac arrest in Los Angeles on June 25 stunned me. I was shocked. I know nothing is permanent but he is just a few days to his come back tour, This Is It. Ok, I have to admit, tears ran down on my cheek listening to the messages offered by the speaker. My mother says, people were remembered most when he died, and last night was an exhibit. However, the word from The Reverend Al Sharpton really struck my mind. He says to MJ's children "There wasn't anything strange about your daddy. It was strange what your daddy had to deal with" Nicely put! Very positive!

It was a memorium, yes it was. But if it is for The King of Pop, it wouldn't be complete without performances. Last night, one of the best performances was from a 12 year old Iranian-Welsh boy from Swansea, Shaheen Jafargholi, Britains Got Talent finalist. He sang "Who's Loving You" by The Jackson 5. A very sweet rendition from a cute little boy.

Well MJ. You never fail to mesmerised me with your dance move. I grew up with your songs. Bilie Jean, Beat It, Thriller, Smooth Criminal, I'll Be There, those are some of the songs that brings magic to your fans including me. People says you died as a Moslem. I say From Allah We Hail, To Him We Shall Return.

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Dream Revisit

A revisit to my dream - Palm Kenyir Lodge.


The view is from the Lodge balcony. There are 3 islands across the resort - 1 big and 2 small islands. The big island is for recreational activity - horseback riding, cycling, BBQ Pit, jogging, camping, picnic or just relaxing. Shuttle boat will be provided from the lodge. The smaller islands is for a more adventurous activity. One for Paintball Island. Imagine playing paintball on an island, separated from the main land. Sounds like Falkland? The other one, no plan yet. Open for other ideas.

I am dreaming. Don't wake me up!